3am Thoughts
It was about 3am this morning when I realized that once again I wasn’t happy with the direction my life was taking. Since coming home from camp I haven’t been doing much. I sleep, surf the web, eat snack type food, and now work nights. I’ve got out of shape, barely making “height and weight†for the Guard, not passing my diagnostic PT test. I’ve pushed away friends, and haven’t been truthful with certain people in my life.
I’m going to change. I know I’ve said this before but I’m going to do it this time. I’m afraid of what will happen if I don’t change. There are some things I can’t change for this semester. I can’t switch jobs; I have three more months before I start my internship and feel its best if I keep this flexible security gig.
What I’m going to do:
1) I’m going to spend more time with family and friends. To those few that I’ve been avoiding I’m going to connect with and tell them the truth.
2) I’m going to plan my days in advance. Instead of sleeping until I wake up, I’m going to set the alarm clock.
3) I’m going to check out the Fitness Center at my mom’s Condo, if it sucks I’ll just do resistance exercises. If it’s decent I’ll work out there a least every other day.
4) I’m going to limit my internet activity. I’m still going to push ahead with my business ideas and websites but before I work on them I’m going to have specific goals to mark progress.
Things have to change. They have to change now, or they never will!
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